Fireside Chat

In response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt: “Fireside Chat.”

Fireside Chat

What person whom you don’t know very well in real life — it could be a blogger whose writing you enjoy, a friend you just recently made, etc. — would you like to have over for a long chat in which they tell you their life story?

Heyyyyy, I know I’ve been a pretty sucky and terribly person and blogger and whatever else. I didn’t update again. Haizzzz.

Mehhh I’ll talk alittle abt what happened later, let me respond to the daily post first hahha. There is really alot of people I wanna get to know better. Like maybe my that guy friend FW, even though I’ve known him for awhile, our conversations hardly ever go to our personal life and even if we go there it is just superficial stuff. Another few people are my classmates whom I am gonna do my Final Year Project (fyp) with starting end April. It would really benefit the project in general if I knew them even more than what I already know now. I mean knowing them better would improve the chemistry in the team and the overall communications which would make it so much easier to resolve conflicts and get cooperation. So yeaps, I guess I can’t choose just one cos I wanna know these people alot better than I do now.

So regarding other stuff… I feel like just saying let’s not talk about it but sighs…. I still have to get over it don’t I? This guy I like and knows I like him, has a gf already. And I let it affect me just abit too freaking much. It totally feels like I am going through a break up or something equally devastating haiz… and somemore, I already in my heart knew we can’t be together cos we are from 2 different worlds and I’m just not good enough for him. I guess I’ll never be too. F it lar. Why am I letting these kind of things affect me so much. Why am I so dumb. Haiz…… And adding on to that, I found out like on Tuesday night, and I have 2 freaking important test the next morning, and I let this thing affect me so much that I know I under-performed for both. Urghhh….

And in response to one comment I got from someone that said I’m seeking attention. I would just like to say that if you feel that I’m seeking attention it’s just a way of looking at stuff I’ve written. All I’ve really been doing on this blog is reply those daily post and talk abt my own life. I know I whine alot when it comes to my own personal life but can any of you out there say that you do not whine or even complain? I’m not seeking attention. All I want to just to be able to rant alittle. And seriously, I do not get a chance to rant cos everything in my life now is just they, them and themselves. Not about me…

“A real conversation always contains an invitation. You are inviting another person to reveal herself or himself to you, to tell you who they are or what they want.” ~ David Whyte

Jun

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SORRY

Hey guys I am so freaking sorry. I really don’t have enough time to even open another tab and start writing another post. I am just so overwhelmed by shit happening in school and everywhere around me. I have so many test and quizzes this week. 3 freaking test. One of it is like 40% of the whole module and I’m not even done preparing for it so I’m pretty much screwed.

And I am just that tiny winy bit close to murdering doctors. They are horrible people, all they have been doing for my migraines are just stuffing me with painkillers or just asking me to get more sleep. And I am just freaking going ‘rightttttt if I can get the pain of the migraine to go away or even subside with your painkillers or sleep, I won’t even be here for like the third time’ in my head. Oh wells I freaking just have to deal with whateve cards I’m dealth with in life right? There are people who are suffering even worst stuff. So I should just shut up and suck it up.

SO… I will really really really post daily again once I get pass this week. I promise hahah okay bye guys this post is sucky, I know but I did write this within a song hahah. yea that’s how I count how much time has passed. Bye

“Time flies over us, but leaves its shadow behind.” ~ Nathaniel Hawthorne

Jun

I Got Skills

In response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt: “I Got Skills.”

I Got Skills

If you could choose to be a master (or mistress) of any skill in the world, which skill would you pick?

Hey guys:) Today’s prompt is easy to answer for me cos I thought about this before hahah. So the skill I want to master is the skill of reading people. Like understanding what they are feeling and all the stuff that can potentially save you or just make you more successful in life. I mean once you start knowing what people are feeling and stuff, you would instantly know how to get to them, how to get them to listen to you without forcing them to. Once someone masters this skill, there will be alot of freaking opportunities for them whether they see it or not.

For me, I really need this skill in school man. I’m still in school and if I know how to read people, I can easily get the help I need in my studies and also be able to get the perfect kind of people for class projects if we get to pick on our own. I am already in polytechnic, and you have no freaking idea how political things can get in lectures, tutorials and even with friends. Mastering the skill of reading people would help me navigate this f-ed up world of politics slightly easier. Seriously dealing with all these daily will kill anyone let alone a 18 year old. I’m just keeping my frenemies and enemies close to me so at least they would tell me stuff and I’ll just take it with a pinch of salt and I already kinda know what they are gonna do about something. But yea, it’s too tiring trying to keep track of what he said and did after telling me something. Cos another one will come along and say some other stuff. But that’s life. If you can’t handle it, get out of it then. No way out though.

Yeaps, that’s all guys. Freaking tired and aching all over. See ya hopefully tmr?

“A woman with organizing skills can run a construction company without ever picking up a hammer and nail.” ~ Warren Farrell

Jun

Oasis

In response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt: “Oasis.”

Oasis

A sanctuary is a place you can escape to, to catch your breath and remember who you are. Write about the place you go to when everything is a bit too much.

Hey guys I’m so sorry I stopped blogging for like so long. I really wasn’t taking care of myself at all these few weeks so it was fever on and off and I still had to go to school so once I’m home I just knocked out once I took a shower and alittle food.

So for me I don’t have a physical place haha. It’s just my mind. All in the brains yo hahaha. That is really the only place I can escape to. An escape from the reality. And really, there isn’t a time where everything isn’t too much. Everything is always too much for me. In your mind, it is up to your imagination as to where you wanna go right? You can have all the time in the world there, there isn’t a need to have to return cos with a snap of your finger you’ll be back in this crude reality. Anyways, I feel the meds drowsy effect kicking in so nights guys. And really sorry and also no guarantee I’ll get better cos I really don’t feel like getting better. I like this numbness.

“The mind is not a book, to be opened at will and examined at leisure” ~ Severus Snape

P.S. I really like him hahah 🙂

Jun

First!

In response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt: “First!.”

First!

Tell us about your first day at something — your first day of school, first day of work, first day living on your own, first day blogging, first day as a parent, whatever.

Hey guys, so the first i’m gonna talk about isn’t a first day, it’s just a first time haha. It’s about the first time I went anywhere on my own haha. Frankly speaking, I am never the person you’ll see on the streets wandering around alone window shopping or whatever. Whenever I’m out, I’m always out with someone be it my friends or family members. I might be see standing around using my phone waiting my friends, that’s the only time I’ll be alone I guess. Seriously, I hate being alone. It is like this insecure feeling when I’m not with my friends when I’m outside. I dunno why I feel this I mean there are people who are totally fine being outside shopping or walking alone, I will never be that person even when I am like 40 over hahah kinda pathetic isn’t it?

So yea, the first time I was out alone. It was seriously nerve wrecking. Nothing much happened but yea it’s just freaking nerve wrecking. That day, I just woke up and on the way to school I decided to not go cos I wasn’t in the mood for a full day of dealing with crappy people and just crap in general and I also did not want to go home. My mum was home that day, so I usually go out of my way to avoid spending time with her, I just hate it when she is home. Most of the screaming and nagging comes from her so it is pretty obvious that I would not wanna go home if I ditch school right? So I went wandering around a mall near my place. It’s an eco mall and have quite a few tuition centers and no freaking popular or a proper stationery store. I was just wandering around and then went to coffee bean and sat there writing random crap in my notebook and only left there when it is 4.30pm and I’ve been there for like 3hr plus, I was freezing like some kid thrown in to the North Pole with just a Tshirt and a pair of jeans. I am freaking weak against the cold. 20 degrees Celsius is already a temperature where I have to zip up my jacket and sit on my hands to keep warm hahah. So yea, this first experience being out alone is pretty sucky. And I get bothered very easily when someone stare at me for too long I get paranoid and start thinking is there something on my face or was I acting too weird for the public to handle hahah. So this experience pretty much made me 110% sure that I’ll never go anywhere to get anything alone other than just opposite my house to get a drink or some snacks. That is the max I’m going and this would pretty much kill me in the later part of my life but meh… I’ll just wait for that time to come and then die 🙂 nothing too difficult. So yeaps bye guys

“Whenever a thing is done for the first time, it releases a little demon.” ~ Emily Dickinson

Jun

Be The Change

In response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt: “Be the Change.”

Be the Change

What change, big or small, would you like your blog to make in the world?

Hey guys 🙂 so yea today’s prompt, what change I would like this blog to make in the world. Hmmmmm I highly doubt I’ll even change much with this blog. I mean all I do here is just answering the daily prompts, telling you guys snippets of my life. At the most the only change I can make with this blog is give people another perspective of something or just retelling people what they already know haha so yeaps.

Andddd I think you guys already know this, fever and a very interesting book and a training early tmr morning don’t mix well hahah. I FINALLY started on the game of thrones book, it’s okayish so far cos I only read the first chap and my fever decided to give me an even worst headache so I didn’t go far at all even though I can complete it like in less than half a day without distractions but mehhh. And bye guys, need to take meds and rest. Training tmr is gonna take half my life away hahaha. 8.30am to 9.30pm and it’s outdoor stuff. Pioneer retraining for us so we can train guides from my sec school. Night nights and love ya 🙂

“No matter what people tell you, words and ideas can change the world.” ~ Robin Williams

Jun

New Year Resolutions

Hey guys 🙂 so how’s 2015 so far? Hope it’s good so far haha. So yea decided to share 3 of my resolutions, I seriously hope I can keep them hahah I tend to forget them even though I write it like everywhere hahahah.

So firstly, it is to read 2 books every month:) I have like a pile of new books waiting for me to read. Mainly got books for my Christmas presents so yea got 5 books waiting for me and I’ll write a short review on them if I have no idea what to write my post on. This resolution might be something really easy for me to stick to haha I mean sitting at my study table, I see that 5 unread books staring back at me begging me to read them haha

Secondly, it is to write a handwritten letter to someone that really helped me out that month. Hopefully won’t be the same person every month? haha I mean it will be pretty awkward passing a letter to the same person 2 months in a row thanking them right? Okay maybe it isn’t that weird but it’s just me hahah:)

Lastly, it is to save $4 every month and not use them which is kinda like saving $1 per week. Hahahah sounds like a pretty easy thing to do right? haha But for me, it is practically impossible I tend to overspend and sometimes if I see a book I really really want or something I really really really have to get, I can’t help but to just get them and there goes all my money hahah so yeaps haha I’ll try my best to curb that and have at least $48 set aside by the end of the year:)

So there you go haha my New Year Resolutions, I better keep to them hahah. Love ya all and have a great year people:)

“Action is the foundational key to all success.” ~ Pablo Picasso

Jun