Let’s assume we do, in fact, use only 10% of our brain. If you could unlock the remaining 90%, what would you do with it?
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It would really be so awesome if I would be able to unlock the full potential of my brain haha think of all the things I can learn, all the things I would finally be able to understand. Dang, the first thing I would do is to finally get one semester of perfect GPA. And seriously that would make me happy for the rest of the year haha. And also with that I would wanna finally learn French properly, for so long I’ve just been dabbling with. And I guess that’s pretty much all cos I know I would wanna learn every single thing I am able to learn and read everything I can all the while helping people haha
Theodore Finch is fascinated by death, and he constantly thinks of ways he might kill himself. But each time, something good, no matter how small, stops him.
Violet Markey lives for the future, counting the days until graduation, when she can escape her Indiana town and her aching grief in the wake of her sister’s recent death.
When Finch and Violet meet on the ledge of the bell tower at school, it’s unclear who saves whom. And when they pair up on a project to discover the “natural wonders” of their state, both Finch and Violet make more important discoveries: It’s only with Violet that Finch can be himself—a weird, funny, live-out-loud guy who’s not such a freak after all. And it’s only with Finch that Violet can forget to count away the days and start living them. But as Violet’s world grows, Finch’s begins to shrink.
Heyy guys, that above is gotten from goodreads abt the book. So yea, gonna be writing what I felt abt the book.
I got drawn to this book first because of its suicide theme, there are not many out there that will even write about it. Suicide is like kinda of a dark serious kind of theme not many want to talk about.
This book also reminds me of The Fault In Our Stars. Suicide to cancer and Violet and Finch to Hazel and Augustus. The story to me is really bittersweet. I totally can relate to Finch fascinations with death as I myself am fascinated by it haha. At the same time, I can also relate to grief due to a loss of a loved one. Throughout this book, there are parts where I teared and also smiled a lot to myself at how sweet it was haha.Though the ending was kinda sad for me.
People are afraid of all kinds of things: spiders, the dark, or being enclosed in small spaces. Tell us about your greatest fear — rational or irrational.
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So fear, it is an unpleasant emotion caused by the threat of danger, pain, or harm. And before telling you abt my fear/phobia, let’s see what are some of the common type of things people are scared of, well some common ones are spiders, confined spaces, flying, heights.
For me, I’m afraid of bodies of waters like the swimming pool, the sea, a lake and stuff like that. I think the reason why I’m so scared of all these is from an experience I had when I was younger during a swimming lesson. I nearly drowned during a swimming lesson, its so weird that I can nearly drown even though it is a private lesson with me as the only student and that was my first lesson. After that, I’ll start crying whenever I go near the pool and I was already 10 then. Imagine a 10 year old bawling while standing next to the pool not daring to even step foot inside it and yet the same 10 year old can go for a flying fox ride across Sentosa without even crying and begging her parents to let her go on again.
Till this day, I still get panicky just hearing that my friends want to go to the pool or to the beach. But as long as I have a life vest on, I would go kayaking with my friends after they spend a few hours trying to convince me to go and another few minutes trying to calm me down when we are standing by the sea. Haha kinda weird isn’t it? I love to kayak but I am afraid of large/open bodies of water haha.
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What is depression? Depression is a condition of general emotional dejection and withdrawal; sadness greater and more prolonged than that warranted by any objective reason. More than 350 million people of all ages suffer from depression. More women are affected by it than men.
So why the hell am I talking about this? Well, for a very simple reason, I’ve been feeling depressed for like the whole freaking month and the thoughts of suicide passes through my mind constantly especially seeing how freaking useless I am during my group projects and how am I dealing with issues in life. I let these stuff affect me too much that it is bringing me down along with it.
It is funny how I know I have issues like this and how I know I shouldn’t let it affect me but it still does affect me so much. It isn’t even funny anymore. But when I still can deal with these problems, I I used to laugh at myself for being such a dumbass for letting things that don’t directly concern me affect me so much. For example, conflicts within a group of friends that I used to be close to can still affect me a lot, I even think it is my fault that this conflict happened cos by right it is my fault. I used to be the mediator, the listening ear, the conflict solver of that group. But now I’m not close to them already as they are all mostly in TP while I am here alone in SP so how the hell am I supposed to maintain the relationships with and within the group, I’m in the west and all of them are in the east. And now I’m just blaming myself for causing it.
Another thing is stupid family. Stupid freaking family. Problems forever cocking up here and there, everything blamed on me. I don’t even feel like calling that place home anymore. It don’t feel that way anymore. It is more like a place where I take shelter at night, nothing like the place I used to call home. Home is someplace where you can truly relax, let down all your troubles of the day and fully relax and chill. Now, it is nothing like that.
I don’t even remember what made me start writing this post. Cos right now I have already forgotten it like at the 3rd paragraph hahaha oh well all that I know is that feeling depressed really suck very bad. No mood, no energy, no nothing. So many sucky weeks man. And all happening after I come back from the China trip. I guess I left a whole half of me there. Haiz.
Heyyy… How are all of you?? I realised that I didn’t really ask abt you guys in my last few post so im sorry. Just caught up in my own little world and life kinda.
I know this post is like kinda late for the 25th day but mehhhh. Stuff happened again so yea… Work was mehhh everything was kinda meh today. It was what happened in Dana’s room that is the best part of the day hahha. We had a karaoke session in their room using the karaokeparty website. Had so much fun singing loudly and not caring how bad we all sound cos we were all having fun. And for someone who totally hates her voice, this is like a big deal. After K session, I showed Dana, Wei Ming’s wordpress blog and she was like OMGGGGGGG so much feelsssss makes me feel like giving him a hug in the morning. And then I was also like feeling the same cos yea… he can really write well but his last update was like on the 28th of December 2014. But oh wells, those kind of feelings he was feeling are not something you can shake off that easily within a few months especially since he put in so much effort into the team and in the end not be the president just cos he is doing his internship here in China and not in Singapore. It’s so unfair right???
Anyways this is all I have for today cos I’m kinda lazy and tired so yea haha. Love ya all still… Nighty nights.
“There is always inequality in life. Some men are killed in a war and some men are wounded and some men never leave the country. Life is unfair.” – John F. Kennedy
Hey guy, it’s the 24th day I am here in ChangChun, China. Boyy, yesterday was so tiring even though we didn’t do much. First of all, we had work but work was so short cos we start at 10am, and our lunch break is 2 hrs starting from 11am which means we only have 1 hr of work before lunch and then we work for another 2 hrs till 3 pm where we have to catch the shuttle bus back to the main hospital where our bus will pick us up and bring us back to the hotel. So technically, I only work for around 3hrs per day. And what we did at work yesterday was just have a small introduction to the department and a rough timeline as to what we would be doing this whole week that we are attached to the department. And we also got to control the machine used in radiation treatment, the CLA (clinical linear accelerator) it was pretty cool to be able to be so close to the machine and even get to operate it. This experience isn’t something that will come by so easily in Singapore. So it was pretty much a right choice to come here. Even with all these shitty drama I have to tolerate from my roommate.
After work, we all come back to the hotel and then finally had western food in China, after a long 23 days before tasting western food again. The pasta isn’t really that tasty cos it’s hard and cold for god knows what reason. But pasta is pasta, finally seeing a decent plate of pasta feels so freaking good, almost feels like waking up to your birthday and see presents waiting to be opened. The place we went to is called pie & pie if I didn’t remember wrongly haha cos I was just blindly following the guys. After food, it was shower then movie at the guys’ room. We watched X-men the first class a few days ago then yesterday was X-men origin: Wolverine. We were actually planning to do an X-men marathon beforehand but after watching one movie, all our butts were aching and most of us actually managed to doze off while watching the movie so we decided to just do one per day or something like that.
Today, was so freaking boring. The machine broke down in the department and we couldn’t do anything so it was just slack in the meeting room playing taidi and donkey till it’s time for us to go back to the main hospital. We had to go back earlier today cos we have a lecture at 1pm at the main building so yeaaa. The lecture was so boring you know. I slept through the whole damn thing and woke up to realise everyone was also sleeping and the doctor was still talking as if the whole class was awake. Oh wells, today hasn’t ended so there isn’t much to say abt today. I might update again tonight if I still have the energy to do it after another X-men movie. Usually, I will just knock out after a movie even if it is a horror. We watched insidious and insidious 2 back to back and I went back to the room and immediately fall into the hard bed and slept. Hahah yeaps so that’s all folks. Will update again soon since my lappy is forever on my bed now.
“Friends are born, not made.” – Henry Adams
Hey guys, I’m so sorry that this post is gonna sound so incoherent cos I’m really mnot thinking much and the WiFi here is really really bad. Only manage to get it working properly like recently. So yea… please be understanding haha…
Today marks the halfway mark of our OITP in ChangChun. Haiz this 3 weeks are like hellish for me cos of the person I am rooming with. What a bitch you know. Freaking cannot stand her anymore. She expects everyone to cater to her needs and we are all insignificant in her eyes, it is as if the world needs and should be revolving around her all the time… All this are caused by one very important person in her life. Her freaking mother. The one that spoiled her like that’s the only thing she knows how to do since she has given birth to her. Oh wells, this drama isn’t gonna bring me down on this remaining trip
Other than this down in the 3 weeks everything else has been freaking awesome. I, as an outsider to this class, have been accepted wholeheartedly everyone treated me like I already belonged there and I wasn’t even a stranger in the first place. I have never expected that I will be accepted this quickly. I thought we would need like at least 1 week plus before any of the guys starts warming up to me. But noo, it only took like 2 – 3 days before ppl started talking to me like I was a part of the class, this is of course after the initial awkwardness where we don’t know what to really start talking about. OMG… I can’t stop spazzing internally over how sweet all the guys were when they posted the class picture we took together outside the museum we visited yesterday. One of the guy, Wei Ming posted that picture and captioned it as ‘“Ohana” Means family, and family stand side by side, hand in hand. No matter what’. After Dayana showed me this, all of us that are in her room just went AWWWWWWW so sweet. After that Dana was like, see Jun, the guys see you as part of the family already and they are all so damn sweet. When I read that, I can totally feel my heart melting at how sweet he was.
So far during this whole trip, all the guys have been like so helpful and really proper gentlemen. They are always looking out for all of the girls, making sure we are walking with them and not walking at the back whenever we are outside. And we were on a hike last week and all the guys just placed themselves all along the way like mini checkpoints to make sure all the girls are accounted for and everybody is still able to catch up with the group. Ahhhhhh they are too damn sweet man. They are all like older brothers to me and talking to them is so much easier than talking to guys in my class.
Oh wells, I better treasure them for the remaining 3 weeks. I really should do something for them right? Hmmmm, if only I have proper stationaries and coloured papers then I would be able to make them all little thank you cards and I shall get them chocolates too J haha
P.S Sorry abt this weird-ish post cos I’m really having trouble forming proper sentences and writing properly. So yea… And I’ll try to update weekly since the WiFi is kinda working already.
“Ohana means family, family means nobody gets left behind or forgotten.” – Lilo And Stitch